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[26 Nov 2008|11:42pm] |
Autumn Music Festival this last Saturday was fantastic.
As usual, posted the entry in my raving journal!
www.livejournal.com/~ravetommydanger
Thanksgiving tomorrow, which means a busy day. I've never had such a committed relationship to where Lindsay and I are going to be with her family in the morning and then my family in the evening.
Our house is going to be empty the whole day...but that will change come night time because we're going out and getting all sorts of christmas decorations including a 2nd tree that will be black and called the METAL tree haha. I love my girl.
Our house might be improving on its look soon. We're just waiting on Lindsay's parents who have more power over the house (we pay them the rent because they're in charge of the mortgage) to have the final action on fixing certain problems within our house (both before syren destroyed it all and a few new things being messed up)
My uncle Vinny died finally after slowly deteriorating over the last few months. I'm really glad I got to see him just one week before the problems started, he always reminded me of some cheerful mobster you'd see on the movie Goodfellas. I'm gonna miss him, the good relatives always die off first...
I don't really have much else to say. My creativity has been flowing hardcore since I went a bit nuts making rave t-shirts and now I'm creating and writing a ton of new material, so I've been working on that stuff. School's been going fine, work's been getting a bit better but I still want to move out of this job sometime next year, and that's really it.
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[31 Oct 2008|03:20am] |
Also, I have a T-Mobile phone now. If anyone has T-Mobile text me and lemme know because I've got that mobile to mobile stuff and can talk to you for free!
I really want to write my Beat Harvest Review here at work, but there's retards here that are super loud and distracting, so I got to wait to they leave or until I'm home where things are quiet before continuing. I've only got about 2 typed pages so far of it done.
Since I can't write right now, I decided to mess around with nostalgia. I looked at a site I used to frequent often back when I was into it, as well as noticed an awful lot of my friends on livejournal don't really update anymore. Of the 55 friends I have, only about 10 or less of said people update their journals.
This kind of got me to think about the fact that I might just get a new Livejournal and use it solely for Rave Reviews, Photos, and Videos.
I'll still keep this journal for connection to those that still update, just probably won't use this anymore or maybe just as often.
The new journal is www.livejournal.com/~ravetommydanger and I will post everything there as well as possibly post past entries the more time I have to do such.
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[30 Oct 2008|11:37pm] |
I voted today. Hopefully despite the blind infatuation most people have for a different figurehead we won't have a socialistic (communistic) nation and can actually not worry about a failing structure come next presidential term. The sad thing is most people don't study any candidates and just go with "what's popular" or what someone else puts into their head to choose. *sighs* that's how the world works I guess.
I got another tattoo a couple weeks ago! It's on my finger and its small, but it unfortunately faded fast (finger useage doesn't keep healing tattoos in good condition) so thankfully since my buddy Zack did it he's gonna bring his stuff with him and go over it again and again until it's a nice solid black like it's supposed to be and not this light color it is now. Now I have two tattoos and a piercing hooray!
Sorry about not posting up the Beat Harvest 3 (happened Oct 18th) entry. I've been waiting on Google Video to stop being a dickhead and upload my videos for a change. It finally started uploading them a couple hours ago, so I'm going to focus on getting everything situated for a post this weekend.
Also sorry to those that wanted me to go rave with them on the west coast for Monster Massive (Oct 25th) Devils Night (Oct 31st) and Fabulous Fest (Nov 1st). There was a huge issue with getting my girlfriend off work in time to buy plane tickets and then when things were looking like she might make it it's now WAY too expensive for plane tickets and such out there. It's sad I won't get to see any of you until another rave down the road, but it's actually a good thing I didn't spend more huge chunks of money after just doing it a few weeks ago for my 100th rave in San Francisco.
Have fun for me guys and gals! Happy Halloween!
This weekend is going to be alot of fun! First it's starting with a big Halloween party out near Tampa with my buddies and girlfriend (who's gonna freeze cuz she has a tiny costume) then on Saturday there's a mini AFTERBURN party! (Burning Man Style Event in Florida we actually get alot of them www.floridaafterburn.com) to kinda prepare for the big afterburn going on in the middle of November yay!
I'm really looking forward to the next two months too because there's a shit-ton of stuff going on to include many raves and REALLY GREAT ARTISTS that'll be playing in local clubs I can possibly get a picture with em at!
Okay next entry with be Beat Harvest 3 I promise!
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[23 Oct 2008|09:04pm] |
So I totally forgot about my MIR (Month In Review) entries for the last few months! Lots of raves happening and I was busy with those entries. Photobucket has a nice feature where you can literally generate a thumbnail link of every photo and then just click on the photo to see it in a new window bigger, so I'm going to use that from now on instead of typing in every single freakin code like I used to do (after the Love Parade, I'm sick of it lol).
So here's the last 3 months all caught up!
( JULY MIR HAS LANDED! )
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[15 Oct 2008|09:52pm] |
First:
ARE YOU PEOPLE PAYING ATTENTION TO THE LOVEFEST ENTRY???
I write them for my own records, but I don't post the photos and videos for my own health yaknow... :( I know the review is 15 pages long, but cmon now it's not that bad of a read...
Stole this from Jellybean:
Grab the nearest book.
* Open the book to page 56.
* Find the fifth sentence.
* Post the text of the next two to five sentences in your journal along with these instructions.
* Don't dig for your favorite book, the cool book, or the intellectual one: pick the CLOSEST.
George Carlin - Brain Droppings: People say athletes should be role models. I never looked up to an althlete, did you? I liked them. I didn't copy them. Did you ever listen to one of those guys talk? Would you want your kid to turn out like that? Willing to completely subordinate his ego and individuality for the sake of a group whose sole purpose is to compete with other groups? Can't have a moustache? Gotta wear a suit jacket? Shit! If your kid needs a role model and you ain't it, you're both fucked.
Haha I like how that happens to be the book I'm reading so it's the closest book to me. Got lucky on this meme.
NEXT RAVE: BEAT HARVEST 3! That's again at the Crooked Tree Ranch or as we Floridians refer to it "The Raver Ranch" or just "Crooked Tree" depending on how often you've been there. This venue is absolutely perfect woods area in the middle of nowhere somewhere close to Tampa. The weather has been absolutely lovely out (nice and warm in the day, a little bit cooler at night, full moon and clear skies!) so hopefully that will be like that all Saturday!
I'm not sure what's going to happen as far as the end of the month goes now with traveling to the west for another rave. I was originally going to go to Monster Massive, then a whole bunch of friends want me to go to Devils Night and Fabulous Fest...but this was BEFORE my girlfriend got fucked by her work schedule and now can't get off work for Halloween and Nov 1st. That means I can't really wear my costume (we match, how gay is that?) and so that means Monster Massive is back in the running again if I even go at all because I don't want to go to Vegas without her by my side. There's still a very small chance she can get around the system and get off, but it's not likely :(
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[03 Oct 2008|03:14am] |
October and March...
What a crazy two months out of the year they always seem to be for me.
October and March are the two months that the weather changes from hot to cold and cold to hot in Florida, and with that transition the same reaction happens to me everytime.
I get this sudden surge of overall well-being. Spiritually, emotionally, and physically I feel ten times more alive than I do at any other time of year. I become extremely productive-taking care of tasks I put off for months in a matter of minutes-as well as not feeling so rotten even on really bad days. I also become creatively inspired, and practically push out new projects and ideas for projects like an assembly line.
I feel alot more awake, and seem to take in each and every sense the outside brings no matter the time of day. I just FEEL better in these two months.
And...always...I get nostalgic.
I can't explain why, but these two months always bring me into a weird nostalgia phase that causes me to look at past photos, old friends myspaces, read old entries of journals, and so forth.
It's all a bit odd in some cases, for instance I might check out a profile of someone I haven't spoken to in ages-usually because it was a relationship gone sour or some fight that caused the two of us to stop being friends-and I'll get nostalgic about the good times we had and even for a moment consider rekindling that friendship before backing down when reality slaps me into my senses. I don't think I could ever really try to rekindle those kind of friends again because they are usually completely against me and probably are still holding onto that grudge...
This month, now only in its third day, is no exception to the "Weather Change" rule. Already I went from harmless old photo browsing to profile scanning.
The first thing I did was when I was at work a couple days ago. I had finished everything I had to do and since there are so many firewalls online I just played around on Google Earth for a bit.
First, I shot over to Las Vegas and checked out the old longboarding path, thinking fondly about the times Jumpy, Professa Ivey, and myself used to longboard around that area, starting at the "Anal Hospital" and shooting around "The Square" before heading everywhere else in the Centennial Hills area. I zoomed in a little more on that square we traditionally skateboarded on to check out the playground in the center where Ivey and I got in trouble one night out relaxing and drinking beers there (the guy thought we were vandals). ...This playground is literally right behind her old house. Tempted, I focused on that old house and remembered fulfilling my promise that I'd reach it one night with Jumpy even though she moved from that place months before....that caused me to shoot down the road and look at her newest place she lives. I stared at the stretch of street in front of her house, remembered my car being parked there on one absolutely freezing night as I sat in it scared to go to the door to give her her birthday present. As much as I loved her, she always filled me with fear, and I remember finally getting the courage to walk to her door and knock on it just slightly after noticing a car leaving her house (her parents it wound up being, she wasn't even home that night). How strangely vivid it all is each time I look back upon it...
Yesterday morning a photo of me and a girl I dated showed up on my screen saver (random photos) and I felt compelled to go through a friend's page and see if I could possibly check out this woman's myspace. We don't talk anymore, haven't spoken to one another in a couple years now actually. I liked her alot and wanted to give this girl every chance I could, but when she surprisingly went increasingly too fast for me (as far as wanting to move back to Orlando with me when we had only known each other for a few weeks) we had very big fighting issues and split up. Even though most of our short lived relationship was nothing but sex, I looked fondly at her photos as if I had missed a friend who had long since moved away. We did split on a decently neutral understanding, so as I looked at these photos and felt an attachment towards them I actually for a moment considered sending her a message to try and rekindle some kind of connection (obviously not relationship wise because I'm already taken but yeah) and then promptly rejected the idea because #1 I think I wanted her again for that pretty face I liked so much and #2 I'm pretty sure despite a neutral separation she has some sort of anti-Tommy grudge and wouldn't speak to me anyway. I kept my favorite photo of her collection anyway in case I had another nostalgia moment about her.
The very most recent moment was actually of just this last July living in my apartment in Sundance. I was still good friends with Ryan, Kyle, Jason, and some of Jason's friends, as well as dating a girl who was an old friend I've wanted to be with for quite some time. Although a few moments of rememberance for those drinking parties we had in that apartment went by, the real main point of the flashback was just about how beautiful Clermont looked that month. Seriously. Thats it. The thunderstorms, sun setting while listening to children yelling and screaming in happiness at the park nearby, glancing up the hill of stacked houses across the lake I used to go on late-night walks at, the time Ryan and I ordered pizza and then were scared for the pizza delivery guy because a hurricane-like storm happened to hit around the same time the guy was supposed to come, random middle of the night drunken walking trips to Wal-Mart to do god-knows-what after a long night of drinking and smoking hookah, walking around with my date whom I considered to make my girlfriend as soon as I finished moving in (hah that didn't happen fast enough for her apparently). Being out in the middle of the night talking to Vegas friends about how much I miss them. Ahh it was a good month really. I didn't start working in my first civilian job since the military until the end of that month, so I was living in this apartment like it was my summer home, and I was ever so happy to be back in Florida in the summertime again.
Here I thought about talking to a few of these people again. Ryan wouldn't talk to me I'm aware of such and I probably don't mind that one bit considering how low he's stooped over the years, Kyle would chat with me but he's in his own world now and doesn't seem to have time for much on this side of the country, Jason I still hang out with, and even though the girl apologized for being the way she was towards me (long story) I still have a bit of feelings for her that would just make my relationship with my girlfriend complicated and that's not worth it. I can't move back to Clermont either because it's not close enough to the college...so that fond memory will and can be a place to visit from time to time if I ever feel the desire to drive down there.
The biggest most common nostalgia is thinking about the most dramatic life-changing thing that's happened in my life...HER. It's so easy to start into that, and so far I've been trying to block her image out of my mind. If situations like the Google Earth thing come up again, I will just think about the situation and not the face behind the reason. I have a real strong mental block against this girl now and hopefully my nostalgia will not bust the painful memories through.
What an exciting time of year isn't it?
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